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samantha

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26 June

[ Monday, June 04, 2007 ]

10:14 PM

i'm back in Singapore.

supposed to be back on the umm, 9th.

but now, i'm back with saddening news.

my grandmother passed away whilst we were in malaysia.

so, our family had to come back for the wake and funeral.

she'll be cremated this coming thursday,

at 1145. i'm not really sure how its going to be like, cause i've never witnessed one. but, i'm quite sure that whatever it is, there will be people leaving with tears down their cheeks.

at least, i know i will be one of them.

well, i suppose we can still thank God for actually giving grandma the breathe of life.

though she was weak and all, i think that she still was a joy to all of us.

i remember she would ask me

"samantha ah, have you eaten? where's your daddy? where did you all come from?" (in hokkien)

and she would ask it repeatedly for about, 5 times?

she had demeinsure(don't know how to spell)

but, it was really kinda fun to talk to her and all, even though i couldnt even understand half of what she was talking about.

i heard that she was waiting for our family and my uncle,

but.. we came back all too late.

i didn't even get to see her last face, before she was being injected and pumped with all the chemicals to preserve her.

when the coffin arrived yesterday, i was crying like mad.

its all, so, fictatious. i mean, its so sudden that i can't help wonder if this is the truth or reality that i am facing.

jerome(gege) was right, thinking about reality is the same as asking you to be more worldly. everything happens for a reason. and God is the person who allowed all these things to happen.

so it means it must have a reason behind it.

its just that, we don't know the reason

jerome(gege) said that he saw grandma walk into heaven, with her back straight. i'm not really sure if that is true. but i know that she's in heaven for sure and she's spared from the sufferings of the world as what michael said just now.

this is my first loved one who actually left me, throughout my thirteen plus years of life. so, i think i need abit of time to get over it.

everyone seems to be putting up a brave front.

but i know that deep down inside of them, they are burning to cry it out.

i really thank all those who have like, encouraged and kept the family in prayer. please continue to do so, cause, God answers prayer and without God, we are nothing. nothing at all.

well, its kind of a pity that we couldnt go to church retreat that i really wanted to go to,

but.. i guess this is more important than that.

so, i guess i shall stop here.

<3,

samantha

"she's in heaven now, so, be thankful(:"

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