Uh, life is so unfair.
Don't you think? You want things to go this way, but yet it goes in the opposite direction of which you wanted it to go.
Whatever it may be. Call it a phase, some hot-temperedness or whatsoever.
I just hope it passes quickly.
Sec 2 life is so, monotonous. Is it the phase in which everyone starts to change? When people start questioning who you are, what you are doing, why you are doing things?
Its so, uh.
I also don't know what to say.
Some people are just so, irritating.
Its not as if nobody wants to do it.
Its just that it'll be a total waste of time if you do it now.
And besides, you'll still have to do it right.
Its not as if I have short term memory or something.
Hello? I'm like, fourteen already?
I know what is expected of me and I seriously don't you to reprimand me.
Cause it'll just make me feel even more, stressed up.
And before you start wrongly accusing people next time, please think about whether you are scolding for the right reason.
If someone has already put in his/her best effort, there is no point scolding at all.
Do you even know how the person will feel? No, I doubt you will.
Cause you're not the victim.
but let me make this clear.
I'm not making it seem as though you're the evil one and I'm trying to get everybody's sympathy.
I just really can't stand it sometimes.
Forgive and Forget. Forgive and Forget.
Its easy to say. but its so difficult to execute what you actually say.
Oh Lord, you know I need your help.
I have no idea what I'm going through either.
Its just, weird.
I don't like my life very much.
But I still have a mission to live it to the fullest that I can.
Sometimes, the smile on the faces of people like mine, can mean diferent things.
Its just like, a fixed 'smile' mask stuck on your face and you can't really take it off.
Thats the way I feel I guess.
I know this whole ranting and this whole post may seem a little, dramatic?
But its something which I'm really struggling with.
Sec 2 life.
Everybody goes through it.
I guess I'll just have to live with it. Meanwhile, praying and trusting that God will help me through and that the "James" in my life would help me alongside as well.

love, samantha.

"only Jesus knows."