[ Saturday, August 04, 2007 ]
6:24 AM
who compares to you?who set the stars in their place?you who calmed the raging seas,that came crashing, over me.who compares to you?you who bring the morning light.the hope of all the earth.is rest assured in your great love.You are magnificent, eternally, wonderful, glorious.Jesus, no one ever will compare to you Jesus.What do you think life would be like if you're a totally different person? Maybe I should try that. Its not fair. This is injustice. It has no logic/reasoning. Whats your problem? I mean, I'm just doing my job. Do you have to rail at me for doing what I'm expected to do? I mean, nobody in the right mind will go up to a police officer and scold him for arresting someone who just murdered someone else right? Its exactly the same reasoning. And there you can go scolding me for something which I did which was perfectly alright.
Look, if its just for your own reputation in the school, just forget it.
I mean, so what if you are of the highest rank in the school? So what if your form class has the best discipline? So what? Does it make any sense to you? By blowing this whole thing up, you're just tarnishing your reputation even further. So just, forget it. People do make mistakes, and I think you made a really huge one.
Just when I thought you were someone which I could call, my "good" teacher, you just totally proved me wrong. You just destroyed the whole good image that I was having about you. Looks like I'm really no good at different-shading someone who's good and someone who just tries to be good for selfish and petty reasons.
Look, you made me cry, you made the class cry, you made everyone so upset. The fact is, my job is to uphold the school rules and to stop people from breaking it. Now the whole class thinks that I'm the one who booked them. I do not book the whole class for some stupid reasons. Its like, wasting time, wasting effort, wasting pen ink, wasting every single resource you can think of.
Even other people think you're being unreasonable. So, just stop your selfishness will you? Uh, I doubt you'll even read this but if I don't get it out I may explode. Besides, don't you think you're abit biased? Everything that is bad has to do with the so called " trouble-makers" in the class. Hey, have you not heard about democracy? Everyone is Equal. Whether you are a trouble maker or some student that tries to be a goody-two-shoes. So, stop being biased.
Being a prefect doesn't just mean doing your duty. Don't treat it like a duty, or it will just stay as a duty and thats it. Hello? I'm putting my best?
And you scold me for that?
Okay, lets cease talking about me. Not only did you make me cry, so many people cried as well. When people transfer to the school, it means that they met a certaing requirement. Get it? which means that you are in like, practically no right to tell them to get out of the school unless the principal says so. So just like, stop telling people off okay? It takes time to adjust to the school. You're not helping by saying this kinda things.
And, stop demoralising students with family problems, will you? I mean, if your child's teacher tells them that they are a horrible student cause of family problems, will you like it? Its not as if anyone wants this kinda thing to happen right?
Where is your sense of empathy? You should seriously go and do some self-reflection. And you should go through intensive DOTS lessons on Apathy and Empathy. It'll benefit you, I assure that.
Talking about this really sucks. It makes me think of how I actually thought you would be a good teacher and how you just broke it off like that. You have to earn your the trust of others.
Even though we are students, you still have to earn the trust of us.
I feel better after rambling about all these things.
Hopefully the class doesn't hate me to the core. Actually I don't really care. I just pray that the class will be able to stay united and there won't be a sense of betrayal floating around. Because its not the class's fault. Its her being unreasonable.
Ohwell, everything happens for a reason.
Lets just let Jesus take the wheel.
Love, Sam
Everyone is a victim of this. Lets go on rebellion. Evil Napoleon.
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