So, is your faith shaken after what Pastor Eric said?
Well, I shall first talk about what I felt about YWAV yesterday. Hmm, yes, indeed the discussion was rather sidetrack from our whole main focus. However, I think its benefitted me quite alot. Pastor Eric talked about the basic christian faith.
Ephesians 2: 8-9
"For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith and this is not from yourself. It is the gift of God, not by works, so that no one can boast."
Is this what the christian faith is about?
It is not by good works. No one can boast. It is a free gift from God given to us because of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.
Pastor Eric talked about how there are people who seem like they are really holy and spiritual christians but yet in truth, they aren't saved at all. He narrated a scene where we are all standing before God during the judgement day and if we haven't been faithful REAL christians, God will say " Go away from me, you evil doer. For I do not know you."
And if that ever happens to me and you, that will be the start of eternal suffering. There is no more turning point. Thats the judgement about you. Yes, this indeed gave me a wake up call. Has my life changed since sec1? Have I grown closer to God? Have I shared a close relationship with God? Do I even have basic faith in God?
Well, I really felt abit uneasy about this, so I shared it with Caleb. He said that the best way to measure was to ask people about their opinions about me. But yet sometimes, what people think of you may not be what you really are. Unless you are really truthful with whoever you are sharing with, the person will never be able to give you a clear answer of where you stand in your christian faith.
There is one thing that he said which really made me worry. He said "Well, if you ask me who among my friends is living like a real christian, I would be the first to vote you."
When I heard it I just couldn't help but to think what kind of an impression I am leaving on people. No doubt it may be good, but yet. is this the truth about my chritian faith?
I think I have to reflect about my faith and whether I truly have been a testimony for God to those around me.
Hmm, so lets see, oh, CIA BS today was really good. That was because the topic that was covered was really good and it came in handy for Phos at this point of time. I think this issue about accpetance in the group is really important to all of us.
Especially for me at least, and Diane as well. Also, Karen also talked about opening up to other cells and getting to know the fellow Ywavers. What pastor Eric said was true also. We are first Ywavers, then Phos.

Okay, so let me talk about today now.
I was rather dissapointed today with the girls during sermon. I mean, after so much talking and telling to keep quiet during sermons, do you not get anything? I'm sorry if this actually offends you or anything. But, honestly. Even being a fellow Phos, I feel rather ashamed of us. Hello? Even the Sec 1s don't do such things. Like, talking, laughing and talking on the phone during sermons. Okay, lets not even talk about being holy and all that stuff. Just basic courtesy will tell you that when someone is standing on the stage and talking, you should at least look at that person and listen attentively.
Phos people, especially the girls. Can I ask you? How many times has this issue been brought up? How many times have other people told us to keep quiet? I don't know. Maybe we are all deaf or something thats why we couldn't hear it. Look, I'm not talking about anyone in particular, thats why I use the word WE. Which means that I have ever been guilty for doing such a thing as well. But, if you know where the problem lies, shouldn't you take a little initiative to solve that problem?
I don't know what to say already cause it seems as though I am lecturing my fellow peers. But, my question to all the Phos girls is, have you been setting a good example? Have you influenced the younger ones? Well, honestly I think that we should learn from the younger ones. And, if we as girls don't change our weaknesses, how do you expect the boys to stop teasing you as well? It doesn't make sense, does it?

I hope that if you do read this, please do some self-reflection.
Thank you.

Samantha
'God will make a way'