Hey. Today is sunday which makes yesterday saturday. And saturday means that there was YWAV. And that means that I had a really wonderful time. (:

Yesterday was Joel's first time playing drums for worship. And I have to say this but he was really good. At first when he started his drum lessons, I thought that it was the basic one stroke and two stroke kinda thing, but to my surprise, he did well. As in, he played well and yes kai, he didn't screw up! Good job Joel!

But, I did. Cause I was leading the first stanza of I adore. And I was having sore throat. So, I had to like, force the tune out and it was really shaky. Ah, goodness. It was really rather embarassing. :/

During worship, I did feel God's presence. Indeed, our God is an awesome God. The songs really did go well with the message and bible study. It was talking about living life to the fullest and living it in God's will. There was this moment when I started questioning myself why I was actually sitting at the nursery room and listening to Karen talk. Just at that point in time, everything seemed meaningless. I was wondering, if God did not purpose for me to be in Queenstown Bap and Phos, perhaps some of the good/bad things wouldn't have happened.

And just as I was having all these wild thoughts and letting my imagination run wild, I felt something probing me, telling me that "Hey, why are you so faithless? Is it not told to you that God will always be there?" And there. I realised that whatever I was worrying for was actually, nothing!

Streaming results. No doubt I am nervous and really worried about it. But, can worrying help? Will it amazingly push my grades up? Nah, I doubt so. I think I've learnt to be more practical. Looking at the bigger picture instead of what my wooden and narrow-minded mind can see. The bigger picture is ahead. Its in control. Because my life is in God's hands.

Well, we also touched on the topic on death and what being so oblivious as to what may happen in the future. Personally, it really is rather contradicting. You see, none of us know when we will be called up to heaven. So it makes perfect sense to live each day of your life doing what you want and what you enjoy while you are still living. Right?

But yet, do you not think that we are also restricted on what we want to do. For example, at this teenage age, its not advisable to get involved in BGR and all that stuff right? But, what if, what if you sudddenly just die and leave the earth the next day and you have so many more things you want to say to your loved ones? I don't know about you. But I will really be rather crushed. I guess its human nature? Even though I'll be called up to a much better place called heaven, but still there are many things that I want to do before I die and I did realise how short life can be and how sudden someone can just be taken away from you. The feeling is really not nice and it is rather indesribable as well.

Hmm, that was for saturday. Oh, adding one point. I ate Ben and Jerry's yesterday. I never knew that my aunty worked for the company that manufactures that. How cool eh?
So, I ate Ben and Jerrys! It was really good. (:

Today is Sunday. I really wonder what happened. Its weird! Its really really weird!
I hope nothing happened though. :(

Okay, I'm at my cousin's house now. In hougang. Waiting for time to pass. Going to Pasir Ris later for a BBQ. Uh, going to be so loner. Cause I don't know like, almosy everyone there. How cool eh?

Yeah, I see some improvement in PHOS and I am actually quite happy about it. But, its impossible for us to change like, overnight. We'll continue to pray and include God in the picture!

Kk, I think I shall stop now. Love you people.


Samantha

I hope you're okay.