Tsk. Where did it all go to?

Have you ever wondered what life would be like if you're alone and all by yourself? When one day you wake up, realising that everyone thinks that you should just dissapear and just leave their lives alone?

I thought about it. I thought about it today. And I just realised how vulnerable I am to being alone and how I think I will not be able to survive without anyone beside me. This feeling is weird. Its so not me. Its just. Uh, I have no idea what it is.

Went out with Siran and Kai and Diane today. And guess what? I just realised how fortunate I am to have friends at least. And then I thought to myself. What if one day all these blessings that I have just dissapear? What if people just can't accept me for who I am? What kind of state will I be in.

Well, I know God will be with my forever. But yet, theres this feeling that I really cannot describe. Its as though everything just went "poof". And its all gone.

I know this may sound rather emotional and all, with everyone going to say. "Sam, you think too much." But, is it not worry that everyone of us face everyday? Worrying that one day you'll lose some kind of friendship or whatever relationship that is very important to you? Maybe you've never thought of it.

You know what? I don't even know what I'm talking about.

""You may not know, but the words you say mean alot."