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I shouldn't be feeling like this. But I have. This isn't good. Why?
Its definately not what I think it is. And, I don't know. Your not the only one with problems, there are many other out there. So just, leave it.

Today was really, uh. I have no idea as to what to say anymore. I'm not even sure if I can continue trying to live like that. You know what, I don't even know what I'm talking about. Everything seems so hazy now. Like, nothing seems to be clearing up. Perhaps God is saying wait to my prayer. Or he's just telling me to run away? No, thats not the case. He'll help me through. I know that. I know that. I shall not doubt that. I will trust. Trust.

What happened to that small faith and joy that every child used to have? The faith is growing. But the joy. I guess the right word to say now is really hopelessness.

I need to talkkk. But there isn't anyone to talk to. Anyone I hope and wish I could talk to.

Oh Lord my God, in you I put my trust.