I'm just totally going to ignore it. No more for me. No more, I don't want!

Lets see what happened. Monday I went to Rie's house to study for History cause, quite obviously I don't get it. Yes, so now I understand who Stalin is. And Hitler is from Germany. Okay, I think it was rather fruitful. Then, we had abit of extra time so we planned for SASM wet weather plan. I think its cool. Vivocity.

So I went there, I came home and I studied Bio again.

Yesterday, I had intensive tuitions, Science then maths. Three hours each. I think it was quite good.

And today.

Gosh, could someone kill me please? Who in the world flunks Bio?! Samantha Chua, you better wake up okay. Memorise and memorise. Then don't know how to answer the questions. Doesn't make sense right? HUHHHHH.

E maths, no comments.

Maybe I'm better off doing combined science. Okay, you know what, I shall stop thinking this way. Hello?! How could I?! Must be positive. Must be positive. I feel as though I'm just totally trying to tell myself to be positive because I know I have to. Its so, uckk.

The heart, is a complexed organ filled with complex emotions. I don't think I'll get it. I don't think you will either.

Crazy ventricles and atriums. How the heart produces the lub and dub sound. Ah, why can't all scientists just be christians and conclude that our body is a miracle and just accept it. Wouldn't life be easier?!

Okay, I have decided, I will be a part-time scientist and prove my hypothesis.

Samantha's hypothesis: The human body is a complex system and it is a miracle from God. Hence, we do not need to understand it. Because it is God-breathed. If we want to know more, ask God.

This shall be proven. Just wait and we shall see. You know, when I see God, I want to ask him manymany questions.

Why did you create me? Why am I put in situations like this? Do you have a reason? Why didn't I get to see how my life would be before I went through it?

You know what, I should just. Stop asking. Start trusting. I saw Tabitha's personal message "Mustard seed faith moves mountains"

I need to know why I am put in situations like this, I can't help it. I'm just.. not like that! Okay, I could try. But what if my best isn't good enough? Would you pardon that?

Uh, I need to think and reflect.

HUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

Okay, I shall stop now.

Samantha

God is the king of all the Earth, God is the king of all the Earth. Sing to him a song of praise, God is the king of all the Earth.