I've been getting 'disconnected' from my friends. I went blog surfing today, and I realised that there are so many things which I'm not aware of. I don't think this is whats supposed to be happening. Or rather, maybe its just be who makes the bad things come, and the good things go.

Gosh, I really want my friends back. I've been missing out on talking to them are just, talking. Without having to be poilitically correct. Kai told me that day, she reminded me about how we were supposed to bake ever since young. And guess what? What could I say? I'm sorry I've been so busy I'll take my time out for you? So what if I do? I mean, no doubt it'd be of help. But the main point isn't there anymore. Or, is it?

At this rate, I think I'll lose all my friends. Badbad. Real bad. I feel guilty, its my fault la. And I admit that. I'm sorry. But ever since that incident, I really don't want to go through it again. Cause, I'm the only one who understands how it feels, isn't it?

I really wanna say sorry to Kai. I feel bad, like. What kind of a best friend am I? Everyday work work work until I have no time to even drop a hello? Gosh, I'm utterly ashamed I should go hang myself. Seriously. I know I sound weird. But don't worry, I'm not going to kill myself. Not until I get my life back on track. Hey, I'm human too. Sorry Kai.

I remember what the Mother's day presentation was. Some video thing, but one thing I remembered. "A women is not judged by the things she wears, or whats on her face." Makes sense? Yes, it does. I realised, that I've been thinking a lot lately. HAHA. Whats that word to describe it? Shoot, I can't remember. It starts which "I" though.

So, what happened today? I went to school without knowing what was going to happen at all. And then Mrs Tay called for the whole Exco to meet her and she told us that we had to run the forum session for Sec1s. Haha, Sec1s. Funny bunch of people. :D But they're really nice. I really had fun. But, that session made me reflect too. After the whole thing, RuiLing came to me and she said. "Sam, I hate to tell you this but your counduct was really bad just now." Ouch.

It really didn't occur to me in that sense. I guess its different perspectives and all. But she does have a point. Being a good leader isn't going to happen until I set a good example. Time for a reality check.

I realised that everything I talk about now is mosty about my relationships with others, or school stuff, especially PB. I really do pray that God will keep my mind focused on the point of why I am even of this Earth. To give him glory.

Hmmmmm. Hmmmmmmm. This has been a post with loads of thinking involved. Oh, Jessica scared me today. Teehee.

OHOH. My tagboard, HAHAHAA. Sooner or later the whole school is going to start tagging.

Okay. Bye.

Take me and mould me and break me, Lord use me.