Sarah said something which "provoked" my thoughts today. She said, "If God didn't mean for it to happen, then why did he give you such feelings?" Then she replied herself by saying "Maybe its a learning experience?"

Perhaps, and yet again. I'm ashamed for doubting God's plan for me life. It seems as though I have adopted the typical Singaporean "kiasu" attitude. Like, having everything in life so fast paced, its as though I want it to happen now. Right now. But common sense should tell me that if I am thinking this way, there is something really wrong with me.

Clinging on to something isn't going to work, wise up people. Its time to wise up.

I was just reading through my inbox of messages as well as my email inbox. Then I read Pastor Eric's email to me again. He asked to meet up to talk more about my passion. And then I reflect again. What is passion? I told him that I would feel passionate about things which I put worth on. Things which I deem important. Come to think of it, thats quite a shallow answer.

Ohwell, I really would like to find out more. Hmm, I went to school today. For the leadership training. You've got to admit it was quite fun.

"Change is nature, dad."

And it starts, when we decide. I've realised what I value in life is so much. And, its kind of amazing how I already have some of them. Yet I don't know it. I guess this is what people mean by, count your blessings.

So, I value. Spirituality, family, love, courage and wisdom. It was really a tough decision to make. I gave up other crucial factors in life such as humour and happiness. Perhaps this is what they mean by being really grounded by your values.

Your beliefs form your values, and your values shape your actions.

Haha, sounds philosophical? Maybe. Maybe.

Okay, I shall fill all of you in on more about the leadership training soon. It was really a meaningful time.

I'm having the weirdest conversation in my life. Asking someone not to be so nice to me. And this is not the first. Heh. Okay.

I realised that if I keep talking like that, I'll have to celebrate mother's day next year. :D

Bye!

Lead me to the cross, Lord I lay me down.