She asked me why. And what was I supposed to say?

Leadership implies power, and power implies trust. (From the prefect's charter) Trust, hah. I feel like mocking myself. What was I supposed to do? Especially when she asked me that question. What is going on?

Like, wow. Bang, it went straight through the heart.

Why can't I be a robot? Dear God, please tell me why things happen?

I saw their faces and I could certainly tell that they were disappointed. And they looked at me too. I couldn't say anything, could I? She just stumped me. Like that, just like that.

So, that was half of the day's event.

Yesterday was, roller coaster of emotions. One minute I was being crazy, the next I was, I don't know how you explain it, but I was definately not in the best of mood. Its been, quite a while now. I'm quite sure I don't. But, sometimes I doubt how I really feel. Maybe I do, maybe I don't. But I have decided, no matter what it is, I'll keep it to myself. Anyway its not going to last.

I have decided to devote my time to A maths, my new found companion. Our relationship is still not stable yet. So, I asked it for my time to let me adapt to it's lifestyle. I will devote more time and energy to know it more.

Okay, I shall stop now.

Three cheers for A math.

Then something changed, it just happened. You picked me up and turned my universe around.