love crucified arose,

I haven't been here in ages. Because, I'm lazy and tired. Haha, or rather, cause I have been really busy. But now, I'm not so anymore since SYF and Prefect's Commendation are over already. Man, I'm going to have to get used to life without CCA and Prefect's stuff cause both of them are integral parts of them. Ohwell, but as what people always say, all good things must come to an end.

Well, past year as HP has been just great and fulfilling and I wouldn't ask for anything more. I was crying during the school hymn in Prefect's com. No idea why, but it was just.. sad and sentimental. I guess I'll elaborate more another time.

Thank you EXCO for being so great. I really don't know what to say. But I am sure that we have all done our best and that is good enough. Okay, I shall not self-reproach anymore. Its very bad for the soul. Blahh. If theres one thing I learnt from all these, its just to rely on God to see you through it all.

I think what the bishop said was really apt. We all need to surrender ourselves holy, for God to craft us into what he intended us to be like. Yes, he will put pressure on you. But ultimately, you'll be that vase of great use, that vessel of great blessing to those around.

Well, past few days haven't been very good cause I've been asking myself stupid questions. And all these just lead to the point that I don't trust God enough. I'm not intending to write everything here cause its all personal stuff.

Uh, I'm not pissed at you or with you or with anyone else. I'm just irritated and frustrated with myself. How could I have done such foolish things and actually think that it would get pass without any glitches along the way? Thats just total naive thinking. Yes, I did pre-empt things like these to happen. But, so fast? Maybe.

Ohman, I've got enough of this. Enough, I need a break. But sadly, I'm not giving myself the chance to have one. And besides, I don't need this right now. I've got more important things to think about. Okay, stop. Stop.

Alright, so much for the melodramatic part of the post.

---- change mood -----

AH! You know what, we had chicken with brandy for dinner. And I think I'm drunk. Nah, I'm joking. Haha. But seriously. It was rather bitter and.. wine-ish.

Ohwell, I think I shall stop now.

Bye!

God loves me, I know.