I was that close to screaming.

Dear God, please help me. :(

I'll be handing it in tmr and I really pray that God will allow it to find favour with the people who look at that brown envelope. Well, even though I know there are great possibilities of it not getting accepted, I'll just trust that its God's plan and ultimately, he wants the best for me.

I was talking to Rie on the train today, about how fast time passes and its been a year since then. I have no idea how I'm going to live through tmr. But, I will. I mean, its been rather long. Time to let go, isn't it? But then again, I was telling Rie that I'm really looking forward to what happens in about 3 to 4 years down the road. Like, the day when I get a message or a call that will just bring a smile onto my face. If that day comes, then I will know why God made me go through all these and why he allowed things to happen. Similarly, if it doesn't happen, I'll just trust.

Well, today kinda reassured me that there will not be a possibility of anything like that. Simply because, the differences are too vast. And perhaps because of my personal issues. But really, swearing is something I don't like. And its something I will never like. So, there isn't a point in this at all. But sadly, I'm the only one who sees it.

Yup. I'm feeling better now. (in case you didn't realise i wasn't feeling very happy). Yuh, can't wait for the 17th.

Alrights, shall say bye now. Bye!

I realised that its not that easy to accept a person as she is.