I was thinking today, after what Rie and I talked about. And yeah.
I'm not only confusing her, I think I'm confusing myself even more.
So yes, I don't know whether it still is or not but whatever it may be, my conclusion is that:

I promise you I'd stay, even if the rain falls today.

No more hiding from this. God allows this to happen for a reason and I would think that he would want me to face it with an open mindset, face it with a heart that yearns after him and not anything else. Whatever will happen, will happen eventually. I'm tired, so I shall embrace this with courage even though I know that I will fail at times. In fact, many times.

Hide and seek is child's play now.

Dear Lord, thank you.